This is a letter to my best friend. I have not told him I have posted this. I hope he finds it after he has departed, maybe read it at an airport somewhere (the theatrical part of me also hopes there would be the acoustic version of "The Scientist" by Coldplay softly playing in the background). Somethings are just too difficult to say. He is leaving America for an exciting position overseas. Everything fell into place for him so quickly, that he only had a week to pack up and move. Only a week to settle affairs. Only a week to say good bye to family and friends. It will take me longer than a week to process all this, but this will have to do for now.
To my best friend,
I will not say I can't believe this is all happening and so fast. I will not say that I can't imagine life without you. I will not say good bye to you.
I will say that I am beyond elated that you have been bestowed this great opportunity to live and work abroad. We use to sit around and talk about all the "what ifs" and my friend, one of the "what ifs" has become reality for you! I am also glad everything happened in a time of your life when you are not tied down by other obligations.
I will say that I can't imagine what my life would be like without having had you in it. We met when I was on the brink of adulthood, when I had not yet define who I was. I love the person I have grown to become and you have definitely had a major part in my transformation. Through the past years, you have been a dedicated friend, a strong support system, an honest mentor and so much more. You have seen my hideous side, the one that can be angry, judgmental, selfish and irrational. You have helped me reflect upon myself to correct those flaws. You have been the only person that I have allowed to see me completely raw and vulnerable. You have even seen me cry. Through the hard times, you have taught me to be confident and believe in myself. Through the hard times, you have always been there, even when I have taken my frustrations out on you and hurt you. I will forever be indebted to you for everything you have been to me and for everything you have done for me. Looking at the unfinished tapestry of my life, I can see where you have interlaced the warp and weft of yourself...I find these parts one of the most beautiful and they will never unravel.
I will say that I will miss you immensely. I have that feeling I get when I have misplaced something of great value - I know it is not lost, it is just out there somewhere. You and I both know the connection we have is strong enough to span both distance and time. Just know that no matter where you end up, even when you are half a world away and your sunrises are my sunsets, you will always have a home in my heart. Just know that I will love you until the day I am no longer capable of conscious thoughts and emotions (overly theatrical? definitely, but I don't know how else I could have put it).
My friend, until we meet again, I hope that Fortune smiles upon you and keeps you safe,
Phuong
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